“You call upon forces the way a child calls for its mother. But magic begins where no one comes.”
Modern esotericism is drowning in dependency. People turn to these practices not because they feel Will, but because they are frightened, unhappy, and lonely. And instead of standing their ground, they want someone to embrace them. Gently. Kindly. Without demands. They call upon spirits, archangels, and deities, but in essence they are calling for their mother. And they plead: “Make it so I am not afraid. Come. Take my hand. Take away my anxiety.” But this is not magic. It is emotional dependency, attractively wrapped in talk of “spirituality.”
Infantilism is not about pink candles or love rituals. It lies in refusing to take power into your own hands. When someone shifts responsibility onto cards, Hecate, the “energy field,” “destiny,” or anything at all—anything to avoid being the one who decides. You can hear it in the questions they ask: “What if it is not my destiny?” “What if I open the wrong door?” “Can I cleanse myself first and only then begin living?” What lies behind this is not subtlety. It is fear.
Magic is not therapy. It does not heal; it lays things bare. Crowley called this “True Will”—not desire, but action in harmony with one’s own nature. Magic begins with the words “I decide.” Not “I feel,” not “I want,” but precisely “I decide”—and I accept the consequences. That is what makes you a magician, not the number of rituals you perform or the strength of your visualisation.
Spirits do not respect supplicants. Demons laugh at those who come with trembling hands and say, “I invoke in the name of love.” They do not destroy them—no. They simply do not hear them. Because infantilism is an empty signal. It is not grounded. It is not gathered into a coherent whole. It carries no force of Will. It is noise, not an invocation.
If you call upon a Power but fear that it will demand action, do not call. If you begin a practice so that you can be protected from life, do not begin. Magic starts where you are left alone. Where there is no protection. Where you are all you have. And if there is a point within you capable of enduring, the path begins there.
Today we will examine how infantilism disguises itself as “development,” “spirituality,” or “the path.” And this evening there will be a sermon—not for everyone. Only for those who want to hear a challenge rather than consolation.